a coloring storybook and long-playing record

feel like buying the $2/lego-brick from ion orchard.

anyway, my birthday surpise was totally spoilt by angry and stupid hendrick. but really appreciate the effort he put in. plus i was quite touched at how some of the people who wanted to help him throughout all the surprises etc (but apparently it went down the drain). it's like, some of them are like mutual friends, but obviously most of them are friends of hendrick's. like sometimes i thought the people that matter to me cared, but apparently, it kinda made me regret on inviting due to the nochalant attitude. i really can't be fucked anymore.

to those invited: come if you want to, don't bother coming if you feel like you're being forced to. but i'm just gonna let you know that, the very least i invited you was because you mattered to me. so yea, i can't be fucked no more about some things. And why i'm so concerned if you're coming is because i'm really excited this time round, the past two birthdays were like suckfests.

BB!

Air cleared. Things are better, I hope.

If I have a knife, I wish I'd be able to stab you at least 10 times for the harm done. Like fuck you for being so god damn hypocritical. Fucking prick.

HI PEOPLE. I LOST MY PHONE.
DO ME A FAVOUR,
LEAVE A COMMENT WITH YOUR CONTACT NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE.
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 What I'm contented with, and it's gonna be for a very long time. Maybe the period is coming, so I'm feeling quite messed up, but I'm grateful of my current (good enough) life. BKK trip, Cheryl, Hendrick and myself. Of course, there are others but those two are the really close ones, even thou the dickhead can be quite a dick sometimes (:


 Sometimes I wished people were to tell me if they have any issues straight in my face right from the start, esp if you're one really close to me. No one is perfect, so there are flaws definitely. So if you're a true friend, I rather you mention it from the start than waiting for it to slowly snowball. Sigh, that sucks so badly. But nevertheless still glad that everything is cleared now, thou it's never gonna be the same-ish. I'm feeling so guarded, so apprehensive towards the whole group. Then again, I'm a fucking anti-social, nobody and I will ever give two fucks, so that should be fine.

 Tues' party at helipad with the Leftfoots, something to look forward to! Work with John till 8pm.. Awesomeeeee.

despite being told that tumblr was way easier by jo since a long long time ago, i chose to stick to livejournal since, well, all my friends are here. but decided to hit on tumblr today, and well. i've got myself one. http://sherconspiracy.tumblr.com

it's way easier. so, well. i thought it was lame having so many different accounts, but i'll try not to ditch this space here. i had it for years anyway - yea in a blink of an eye. but tumblr is for lazy ass people like me, and puah. (: