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Jan. 10th, 2011

mint

2011

Resolutions for the new year? Nope.
Pretty sure it'll never get past the month of January. And I was right, it didn't even get past the first week.

All I did was do up my room a little.
And that was developing 100 pictures and sticking 1/4 of it on my wall.


Packed my room a little and am really pleased with my neat table.
I've decided to keep all my movie ticket stubs for this year. Gonna be pretty interesting I hope! Current count is 2. ^^

For the first week of the year, many things happened, and I guess it's really up to me to make a decision.
I know what makes me happy, I know I have to do things that I dread doing so that I'll be smiling more often.
Not easy, but yes I have to try. First step is to leave all that supposed to stay in twenty-10, in twenty-10. That will be a start.

After that, I'll need to plan for my future, at least something for the next year. PLANS, I NEED PLANS.
I really have to go about doing things and not sit around telling myself what I have to do, but actually DOING it.

As for a boy-girl relationship, ain't the right thing for me now. Bad timing and I think it's only fair to give myself time since the break-up was just draggy for the longest time. As much as I love to have someone around me, I can't. Quoted from one of my homies <You should take a break for yourself, at least for a year. As much as everyone denies they are needy, they have to find a balance before starting on a new relationship.> Totally agree with it. But, I'll just go with the flow and start listening to my heart more? I'm a dreamer.

Right now, need to get my priorities right. Spend more time with people that matters in my life. Especially those that I can constantly be laughing and smiling when I'm with.

Happy 2011. X

Oct. 26th, 2010

L-O-V-E

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I hate it when I have to be so harsh and mean.
I don't like to be mean, but neither do I like to let my guard down to anyone anymore.

If I were to let my guard down, it means that I'm vulnerable to anything.
Being vulnerable right now, is bad.

I just need time, time to pick myself up and making sure I'm fine.
I need my own space to settle down everything, the mixed feelings, the fight I am constantly having with myself.
This whole struggle, not easy, but I've learnt alot.

Oct. 25th, 2010

butter

I should pamper myself once in awhile

Advance birthday present from myself, Part 1.





Advance birthday present from myself, Part 2
 


More to comeeee. Everything by Nov 2010 :D

May. 9th, 2010

mint

tonight..

ended so so so badly.. i honestly don't want to end up like those who will only blame oneself for the things that had happened.
i probe too much. i hate it so much now. sometimes i'm just so clueless, i want to be normal. i want to feel normal.

it hurts when we were both fighting.
it hurts when you said awful stuff.
it hurts so so so bad when i can't make things better.

and it's still hurting now.

Apr. 28th, 2010

12 colours

always has been this way

when shit happens, everything seems like it's tumbling down. bad.
i want to be happy... who doesn't?

ok.. i'm just in this usual "bad phase" or "really bad period of the year".
i hate it when i'm filled with all the negative feelings. bad bad bad for scorpio, it'd be like death for people around me.
intense feelings, i should never direct it in the negative side. thinking of the brighter side of life, but... so difficult.


the most recent time when i actually smiled for more than half the night was the night orange and i went down to support eddy at 98.7FM's 21 hot guys event. it was so funny looking at eddy performing on stage, having dinner and laughing at all the stupid things we've done. it was great. then after that night.. everything was tumbling down.

i wouldn't say today wasn''t a good day. it could had been better if ws and zh didn't annoy the hell outta me. so it was ty's birthday. the zichar was mad expensive...................... totally failed surprised birthday cake due to the waitress -.- niao... then i lost in mj, i'm not gonna sit at that jinxed seat ever again dudes (inside joke).

i hope tomorrow will be a better day.
i want to smile more.

ok.. happy birthday ty! the primary school kiddos ftw.

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